3 AM THOUGHTS!

Before we go any further, I just want to clarify that I am actually writing this at 2am. I can't sleep no matter how I try 😪 Probably because of the coffee. However yesterday marked the first day of what may be the hardest journey of my life (education related). So far everything has been in my favor and it's always nice to meet my classmates. To be honest I enjoyed it so much and the lecturer was pretty great. I hope he will stay the same throughout this module. After what happened last semester, I could really use a good and understanding lecturer 😅 To my surprise and I couldn't believe it myself, I actually just realized how much I miss being in class and being around experienced people with a lot of knowledge. It made me feel empowered and somehow enticed me to learn more. There is no other way to say it than I enjoy academics as much as I enjoy my job. Well, I thought twice about the job. Not sure if I really love my job but at this point I believe the comparison will do it justice 😆 This semester will however be the final destination before graduating. I knew the pressure would be unbelievable or should I say unbearable (hopefully it wouldn't end up that way). If there's one thing I can describe how I feel with this whole academic thing is that it gives me a sense of responsibility and most importantly it gives me the joy of achievement. I crave that more than you can imagine. It's what drives me, pushes me to be a better person than I was yesterday 🙌

I always treat learning as a tool or platform for a healthy competition and of course winning but I had it all wrong because it is more than just that. Learning provides knowledge, knowledge gives power and power creates the future. So today when I walked into the class, I had 3 things on my mind, to compete, to win and to learn. In fact, today I felt very energetic, very committed and very eager to listen what others have to say. I'm actually looking forward to get started on the assessments, analysis, meaningful insights, and fruitful discussions. I’m lucky to be on the same class as my good friends this semester 👀 Last time I was grouped with some strangers. A bit dissapointed but at least I made some new friends. Everyone in my class has quite a different background. Most of them are in banking industry but it also spreads to other industries including information technology, AI and robotics, aviations, oil and gas, healthcare and pharmaceutical as well as educations. It's amazing to see how these people still make the time despite their hectic schedules. Most of them are even married with kids 😱 One of my classmates is currently 8 months pregnant and expected to due somewhere in November yet I still saw her in class today. How inspiring! I'm not sure if I'm able to do what she did. Such a strong women.

Often people ask me why do you want to become a doctor? (In philosophy) Do you benefit anything from it? To be honest, I'm not sure how to answer this. I don’t even know if I have the answer to this question. All I know, getting a doctorate has always been my dream and I'm now just a few steps closer of achieving it! Looking back, it was crazy. I started off as an average girl. I'm not smart. I never scored on anything. People never rooting on me since I have nothing to root for. My youth never fail to sadden me but look where I am right now. I've made it this far and I'm not going to stop.

That's pretty much sums up everything and I really need to sleep. I have a class at 9. Good night! Wish me luck! Thank you for reading 😚