Just about something I thought you might want to know!

Hi everyone! My family went on a trip but I decided to stay. So, I have this weekend all to myself. I'm going to see them next week. We have something big coming this month, and I'm super excited about it. I'm going to tell you more in the next few weeks. As for now, let's talk about how realistic my life has been. I'm on my semester break, so I have 2 months of good rest before my final semester. In a way, I'm currently en route to my graduation day. I have mixed feeling about it. I'm happy to graduate but pretty sad to see it end because I enjoyed it so much. But that's how things work right. Guess, I just need to pull myself together and deal with it. Anyway, recently, I've been interviewed by one of the largest companies in Malaysia. To my surprise, I managed to pass all the tests but I haven't heard back from their HR. I've followed up twice and still, I got nothing. So, my theory is either I'm not qualified for the position or they keep me as a second option. Whatever it is, I'm proud of myself. Credit goes to my teammates who helped with me the test, mostly on the Excel functions. They were super helpful. Thank you, you guys rock! It's not easy to get an interview with this particular company. Everyone knows this. Even if I failed, to have such an experience is satisfying enough for me. I was devastated of course but disappointment is to be expected especially when you're competing against people with so much more experience and complex skills to offer. We get down and we get sad. That is all a part of what makes us human. I understand this concept but amazingly, it is through this failure, I began to see more of myself, the potential within me, and the support I receive from the people that surrounds me. It's overwhelming and because of that, I'm able to accept the fact and move on with my life. Isn't it lovely? The way God has made every piece of our life fall in the right place, in the right way at the right time. I was bound to feel this way through this particular event. It thought me so much about having patience in doing things, that we cannot control everything, and that it is not up to us to decide. Some things are just meant to be and it is completely fine because the future is made to be unknown so that it can be explored and all the lessons that come with it will shape the person we are tomorrow. And, I've never realized how happy I am with my new team. It's so obvious that I had a few people coming at me saying how happy I've looked recently. I did not see it at first but looking back at all the happy times I had, I believe they are right. Of course, how long this momentum can be sustained is uncertain and with our boss leaving soon, things will surely be different, at least at some points. For now, let's enjoy the happy times while they last. We shall see how things going to be in the next few months. I'll talk more about that once it happened. 

By the way, I haven't had any chance to tell you how my semester 3 has been. It is without a doubt, the most challenging semester so far. I don't think the final semester will be anything different, only tougher. It was hard to process this but all my papers came back almost disappointing. I honestly don't know what went wrong. I surely did my best. Perhaps I did not put much effort into it or maybe I'm just really not good at it. Did I play too much? There's a possibility. Did I underestimate the subjects? Absolutely not. Did I procrastinate a lot? It could be. Did I not engage with my spiritual routine well enough? I'm working on it. At this point, there could be so many things I'm lacking at. Regardless, I'm happy it was over. Now, I just have to wait for the results. Only God knows how terrifying it is. I have no clue. I've always prayed that it is okay if did not get the job (not that I don't want it, of course, I do) but please let me have a good result for all my semesters. But I also know that everything we wish to have isn't always the best for us and it could be the things that we wish not to have is the ones we need. I'm just hoping for the best. May the victory becomes mine for God does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear. What I'm going to say next maybe is a little out of context but I believe it is important to understand that every hardship that we face in life is a test. It is a test of patience, devotion, and trust in God. Whoever puts his trust in God, He will be enough for him. Trust is a huge entity. Trust takes a lot of thought, vulnerability, and care to give up. It is not easy to trust what you do not know, or what you have no control over but that is life. It rolls with the waves and all we can do is ride out the waves and pray for the best. This does not mean not making an effort in life, but rather it means, doing all that you can and doing the very best you can with what you can control. The rest, leave it up to God, He will do what is best for you. With that, I shall trust Him with all my heart and let Him do what is necessary. 

That's about it guys. I'll write again when I have time and more stories to tell :)